My posts usually consist of things my girls have done. That is what this blog is to me, things about my sweet girls that I don't want to forget.
This past weekend, because of thse beautiful girls, I had a WONDERFUL Mothers Day. I did a lot of thinking this past weekend. This is the first Mothers Day that I actually felt appreciated by my girls. They were old enough to get what the day was about. I got tons and tons of hugs and kisses from Avery, followed by "I love you Mommy, Happy Mothers Day." Adi always would follow with the same hugs and kisses and same phrase, not to be out done by her big sister. Growing up when we would ask my mom what she wanted for Mothers Day, her reply would be "For all my kids her be here with me, happy and healthy, and to all get along." We ofcourse thought she was crazy and boring for not asking for "MATERIAL THINGS." Well, Saturday, I found my self telling my kids, "You know what mommy wants for Mothers Day, lots of hugs and for you two to listen to mommy with no sassing and for the two of you to be kind to each other." (This usually came after stopping an argument over a toy, or Avery rolling her eyes at me, because it was not time to get a slush yet.)
Well, I caught myself saying these things and realized that I have turned into my mom and finally understood what she meant all those years. LUCKY ME, I now see she knew exactly what she wanted.
Being a mom is the hardest gift I have ever been given, but more importantly the most rewarding. These precious girls have chose me to be there mommy. There are several days a week that I think to myself, "You are such a bad mom", and then I spend hours thinking of what I can do differently. I finally have realized that thinking I am a bad mom is what makes me a GREAT MOM!!
I know I am a good mom because:
-I cry myself to sleep some nights worrying about how mean and impatient I was with them throughout the day.
-I am always thinking about how I can make their days fun.
-I am told I LOVE YOU MOMMY, hundreds of times a day.
-I come home to BIG smiles and hugs, followed by I missed you today mommy.
-They cry for me when they are sad or hurt.
These are just a few examples, that in my eyes make me a good mom. I need to remind myself daily that even on hard days, my girls love me and nothing will ever change that. But yes I CAN IMPROVE.
On a lighter note, I have some wonderful moms in my life, who I love and appreciate very much. I have my mom, who I know I can call with any problem or concern and she will help me in anyway possible, even though she is thousands of miles away. To my step-mom, who unselfishly gave up alot at a young age to raise my brother, sister and I when she married my dad. To my mother-in-law, who does SO much for my little family, and never expects anything in return, except for spending time with my girls. They look foward to "Grandma Day" every week. To my cute sister, who is almost the mom of 2. I miss her more than anything, and wish we could raise our kids together. It is still crazy to me that she is old enough to have kids. She is only 2 years younger than me, but she is my LITTLE SISTER. I am proud of her. I could go on and on about her. And last but not least, to my two sister-in-laws Kristen and Janille, who are such wonderful mothers and teach me so much. They have become 2 of my best friends. (Happy Mothers day to my grandmothers too, who have taught me so much.) Sorry for such a long post. Now here are a few pictures of these wonderful moms in my life.
My mom, the one in black who looks more like my sister than mom.
My step-mom, who I am so lucky to have live so close
My sister, who I miss more than anything.
My mother-in-law
My sister-in-laws
